Andrew- I’m really sorry to hear that. When I was t able to see my girls, the longest I went was probably about a month and that killed me, and to be honest, I did some pretty stupid things (nothing illegal haha!) In that month as I didn’t want to be here anymore if I couldn’t see them. So to go a year like you have is awful and doesn’t bare thinking about.
Is there any reason you’ve not seen them in all that time?
I do feel totally blessed to have them in my life, I really wouldn’t be here without them. But at the same time, being alone, feeling lonely (especially when I’m not with them) it makes me feel so low at times and I’m then not giving my best self to the girls. It just constantly feels like something is missing. My ex and her partner go for family days out with the girls, even been for professional”family” photoshoots etc, which to me really hurts as it’s almost like he’s their dad and I’m just a bit of a baby sitter.
Even just going to the local shops, I just see families, couples, people together and it’s things like that which I really miss. Just the simplicity of being with someone, doing the mundane, boring day to day things. As I said in my original post, I don’t want her back, no way, even though everyone I see her to pick the girls up, she seems happy, looks good etc, reminding me of when we were first together, but it’s the life that she has now, living with someone, being able to go out with them, spending special and intimate times together etc, I just can’t help feeling jealous and down about it all!!
