hello Miriam ,
First of all thanks for being brave and startung to seek for advice.
I have read your story and started to cry,because i have been in very similar situation of yours. Organisation Next link helped out and supported me through this journey until i was ready to flee the house with my 11 months old baby boy at that time . I left house soon as safe house was available for me and my kids. This was the best decision i ever made. I was free of toxic relationship. I still facing troubles and hard times but at least i can be myself and noone can influence my mental health.
I believe you are strong and you will free yourself. Best luck
