Thank you for your advice. I have got universal credit coming in, as he’s not really been here enough lately to say he’s living here. As he’s ran up such a lot of debt, through unpaid bills and ran my credit up, as he’s always been the main wage earner I cannot cover everything myself.
As for the living in limbo, it’s been horrible and I now know I should be able to tell him where to go and start the healing process. I just don’t feel strong enough. I’m just hoping he will realise he’s made a mistake, but in reality, if that was the case he would not have had any reason to go back up there this weekend. I feel stupid and humiliated and a real doormat. I just don’t know how to start rebuilding things. I don’t know how to explain to my youngest son, as he’s told him that he’s coming home and my son adores him. I’m not functioning at home. I’m due in work tomorrow but don’t know if I can face it.
K don’t want to be on my own forever, but at this point I feel I will never trust anyone else.
