Hiya I’m going through the exact same I have to pick him or loosing my kids I’ve chosen my children but I miss him like mad and sad he can’t come to scans or see baby unless he does everything they ask courses etc but I can’t see him doing it it’s a different emotion I feel every day my daughter misses her dad he’s said I’ve split the family up I have a lovely woman’s aid lady but I feel a weird void that I can’t fill I’m going to be upset if he gets with some one else and I feel bad he can’t see his daughter but I phoned the police for his actions a row we had police numerous times equals social informed they’ve said my parenting fine just me and him can’t get bk together I feel sad and confused all at same time wishing it hadn’t gone like this but it has I don’t want any one else just want him to at least know his children but I’m not giving kids to any one I don’t trust and we can’t see each other as he’s on bail so he’s guna miss out and can’t see my 2 year old or later on our baby . # sad confusing times!!