Sorry it’s taken a while to reply! So things are slowly improving not greatly but I’m taking each day as it comes. I still find it hard as I love him but have also thought what’s the point of me loving him and I get no love at the end of the day. I am focusing on my kids and I’m so much more active with going out and also going to the gym heaps! My kids are my world and my rock what I hope to be there’s also. I really appreciate everyone reaching out it’s certainly no quick fix at all after so many years you can’t turn love off, but now I need to be mum & dad inbetween!