Thanks everyone , I decided against the idea of living together , it was causing problems hence the reason for separating in the first place. We haven’t officially ‘split up’ but I think it is heading that way , it is hard to make it official after nearly 10 years but when I think of going back to how it was , it seems unbearable . Things are difficult but not as difficult as they were when we were living together , so I guess that says a lot. When feeling lonely it’s easy to slip back into old habits and thinking maybe it wasn’t as bad as I think , oh what a confusing time , the main thing is the children so that’s what I’m concentrating on. Thanks again for all your advice , it’s nice to know I’m not alone.