Hi. Sorry to hear you are going through all of this but it’s good that you have reached out and are able to be vulnerable with others who understand. I’ve been there …I understand the total devastation of it all. There is light at the end of the tunnel. You will adjust and find yourself again and forget a new life out of the ashes. If you want to chat sometime it’s fine. You’ll have good days and bad days but one day you’ll realise that you’ve turned a corner.