Hi Lovely, this sounds so tough for you, I think it would be a good idea to talk to your GP if you have anytime to get an appointment. When I was soooo low I went to my GP, Ive been on antidepressants for 9 years now, I know its not ideal and I only tell my closest circle about it cos I worry about the stigma but honestly they really help with the stress and help stay strong enough so I dont loose it in front of the kids! e.g. crying, shouting or panic attacks (I know I was in a shit place) I hope this helps, theres always hope for us as single parents because we deserve it. xxx