I can really relate to these posts. Having my son 3.5 years ago alone thanks to an abusive ex partner & now pregnant & alone again to what is turning out to be another abusive ex partner i really feel for you. I can testify that after being suicidal during my first pregnant i was finally in a good place emotionally beating crippling anxiety & depression & living the happiest life with my little boy. I know it is possible with no emotional or finanical support from the fathers so i hope we all get to a place where we can be happy with our children even though we are alone. My son saved my life & the love you will feel for your baby will save yours too