First let me tell you something, you are not a freak, you can’t wish you were not something that you actually aren’t.
What you are is a woman going through things that break lesser people so that tells me you are a beautiful, bright, intelligent and super strong woman, you may not feel it at the moment but those wonderful attributes are there within you and they will carry you and your littles ones thru.
As hard as things are in your life right now I promise you these things will pass and better days will come to you, nothing stays the same. Please just try take one day at a time til you can picture a great tomorrow.
We all have times when we think we can’t do this but you can honestly, you can. It will take your beauty and your strength to accomplish the life with your children that you want, you have this.
Come on anytime, I’ll always chat with you xx