hi Mariam, I can’t imagine how tough that is. I’ve been on my own for a few years now but nothing like as bad as having to contend with the hospital too. You must be exhausted.
When I’m struggling, it helps to have something to look forward to, maybe a day at a favourite place or a new activity, with a special meal planned. Or a “haven-day” if I’m on my own, spoiling myself – a film, comfort food, bubbly bath etc. Can you try that? Would that help?