I’m new here. Over lockdown I finally decided to divorce my ex husband, he was physically and mentally abusive all 4 and a half years of our marriage.
I can handle taking care of my boys alone, but I’m really struggling with this life mentally. I love them so much, I feel so bad to even think badly about my life as it is. I had never planned to have children before that marriage, but he convinced me we should, and we were young-ish.
I’m 26 now and I don’t know how to be self-reliant for happiness. I feel like no one around my age would be willing to date someone who already has kids.
I feel like I need to make connections with other people in order to feel validated. Now I’m getting depressed because of it, I’m trying really hard to stay a good parent, but I barely sleep at night, I cry all the time, I’m easily irritated, I’m not eating much.
I have some really nice friends in this area, but no one I know is in this situation, I’m feeling so confused and isolated.
I love my kids, why do I feel myself disconnecting from them?
You are still very young, and asking for help is perfectly acceptable. Trust me having children won’t stop the right person wanting g to be with you but you have to be honest and up front. Dont get depressed your happiness mustn’t depend on someone else.
Your kids are the most important thing in your life and you have ages to find someone.