Hi, I understand how you feel.You are not alone in this. I am a single dad looking after my 8yrear old daughter and been in this situation since she was 9 months old.It‘s so painful to bear the loneliness.
True it’s really hard.Have you tried to look for local gingerbread groups in your area.They help a lot and gives opportunities to make new friends.Unfortunately around my area our group is not active. I also have a plan during week I go to gym whenever I am free and alone and it’s helping a lot making me feel good and boosting my confidence.Nights are so boring as it’s just quiet when she goes to sleep.
It’s understandable to be single for long time because as for me I have these fears of how would the relationship impact my life.And you are doing well because sometimes rushing into relationships can also bring disaster to life. I keep praying that one day when time is ripe God will bless me with the right person.