I think sometimes we’re so busy looking after the kids we forget to look after ourselves. Self care can be really important and we need to make sure we’re in a good, healthy, strong position to be able to look after our kids.
If you think you could benefit from a spot of counselling, go for it. If you think antidepressants might help you stabilise, give them a whirl. If it’s a case of getting out of the house more (difficult in this weather I know, try and make it happen). You’re going through a tough time so be kind to yourself.
Take a little time to sit down and figure out where you can look after you a bit more.
Maybe have a chat with your son and see if you can figure out where he’s coming from. Do you manage to get 1:1 time with each of the children separately? Maybe 10 mins per day just talking about their day?