I have been separated 6 months now. I have a 3 yr old daughter and a 13month old son. When I was 4 months pregnant with my son I found out my husband had contacted a sex worker for sex. He was looking for a GFE experience with lots of French kissing. At time I was devastated but forgave him. Naturally there after I questioned everything he did. After my daughter I experienced very low sex drive, which affected our relationship. Last year in August we went away to my friends destination wedding and we had and amazing time.
Months after we came back And my friend found out that my husband had left me, On our return form the holiday he had sent one of our single friends messages on social media. The messages were to this effect. “I think a woman in uniform is sexy” also commented on another of her posts saying nice view as she had her legs showing. When confronted he said it was nothing and that was just paying her a compliment and that I am overreacting.
He apologises for things he has done but there is always a but or however if you had not neglected me I wouldn’t have done these things.
I am so destroyed. I hadn’t even finished breast feeding our son 6 month old when he left me. I feel like he has put the blame on me and I have started to question whether it was my fault the marriage fell apart.
It sounds so pathetic but I still hope that he can see his wrong doing and come back. I know the best thing is to move forward but I am so depressed. I try to keep a strong face for the kids.
It’s very hard as we have shared custody so have to see him twice a week!
Sometimes I don’t want to be alive as I feel like I am stuck in a dark place. I just want to be strong and move forward with my life but finding it impossible.