Hey,
I became a single parent when I was pregnant too. I have a 5 month old son now and I am so glad that I am not in a toxic relationship. I was able to give birth the way I wanted to and have been able to give my son a calm start in life.
It is great that you have the support of your family, my sister was my birth partner and I have moved back in with my parents. It’s actually so much better. I know it hurts, but it’s better it happens before rather than later.
I know what you are going through, and it sucks when you see hardly any representation of your situation in the birth preparation. But there are others who have gone through it, and when I feel upset and confused about it I know that in time it will get easier.
Once you see your baby you will be so in love, it really is wonderful! There are so many positives to doing this alone, especially if the person you were with wasn’t good enough to you!
Hope my words give you some comfort, you are not alone!
All the best xxx