Em, that’s awful. Thank goodness your parents are supportive.
Yes, I’ve been there. I think I just went numb, onto auto-pilot, work, mid-wife, sorting the practicalities until the reality had sunk in.
Eventually I stopped feeling devastated and started feeling angry (absolutely seething furious). Then things started to get better because being angry made me to realise that I didn’t need him. that he wasn’t important and I was perfectly capable of sorting things without him. As you will be.
It took a while. Then the anger turned to indifference. Now I just think he was a spineless knob.
You have a new baby to look forward to. Try to think about her. Maybe try to reconnect with your friends if you can face it. Have any of them become mums since you left? And be kind to yourself. Don’t expect too much. xx
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