I’m seeing if anyone here can help me…..just under 2 week ago I found my partner deceased. He had committed suicide. Not only am I dealing with the grief of losing my partner of 18 months, being the one who found him but also being 10 weeks pregnant at the time. We were so excited to start our family and after 2 previous miscarriages we were going with the theory- 3rd time lucky. We booked an early scan at 8 weeks with a private studio and he couldn’t have been more excited. His suicide did come a little out of the blue and I really had no idea. He had just been signed off from the army and had started a new job he loved. I wouldn’t have said our relationship was easy as he was quite obsessive, controlling and had severe anger issues but being very laid back myself, he credited me for helping him with his issues. I’m now 12 weeks pregnant and feel very scared to be doing this alone. My father died end of October 2013 through cancer, my mum died end of November 2014 through suicide and now beginning December 2018 I have lost my boyfriend. I’m 34 and have a great network of friends and although very supportive, I really need advice and help.