Today I have proved my own point
I’ve been coming to the forum for maybe about 6 months or so.
I’ve looked into attending groups, met up with a couple of other members and explored starting a group in my local area.
Theres often posts on here regarding loneliness, isolation and motivation.
I’ve replied to theses in my chipper sort of way as after ten years of seperation I’ve done most things to help me avoid the depressive, self wallowing hole. But today my Gingerbread pals I have hit it.
2017 I graduated from a course of higher education. That was it i thought. I went from two part time to one full time job, explored a dating website and PUT A TELEVISION IN MY BEDROOM.
Great time for me to be a bit lazy……
Its now quater past 11 and I’m still in bed!!!
Ive been up since 6/7am but I put the telly on.
Around 7.30 all productively i thought right get up do housework. THE TELLY IN MY BEDROOM CONVINCED ME THAT ANOTHER HALF HOUR WILL NOT HURT.
This is after i had to leave a family meal early because of not sleeping through the night and being over tired.
I’m at that stage. Enough is enough.
I feel like my every move and decision is mointored and guided by a clock or THE TELEVISION!!!!
I need to shake this one off.
Being lazy, content, relaxing is fine but that hole is there. That self pity wallow hole that demotivates you and zaps you of your natural energies and i can feel it……..
So. I’m now going to get up. Do my housework, open my patio door, burn incenses and bosh out some drum and base whilst quietly contemplating if the telly in the bedroom is going to stay or maybe i should stick it away until christmas, when all the good crimbo films are on and noone minds if you divulge in mince pies, extra thick cream and a double baileys and brandy or two ๐
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