So sorry for you – I remember that day well. It’s heartbreaking but I’ve been amazed at how resilient kids can be – also amazed at what us parents can cope with! Try to look after yourself and find distractions. I watched endless episodes of Would I Lie to You as it nearly always made me laugh and I could forget everything for 30 minutes! Hope things improve for you soon : )
It’s going to be a rollercoaster but don’t be scared and don’t feel guilty. Build up a support network around you…take things one step at a time and establish a new home and get a good routine visitation sorted from the start. Once you have the basics yiu will have a strong foundation to build on. You are going to be ok.
Prioritise staying in contact and building your relationship with your children and stay business like with your ex. Divorce is damaging to all involved. It takes two years to heal and some children need counselling. Don’t be so wrapped in the adult concerns you ignore what they go through. Put them and their support first. Talk to school and grandparents etc to ensure they have people other than you to talk to and face up to their questions and give reassurance as needed. You’ll be financially worse off So get good at budgeting.