Hey,
Noticed no one had replied yet so just wanted to say I know how you feel – that overwhelming worry about not being able to cope.
in the past when I’ve felt like that a couple of things helped me:
Being very honest with people around me, really using my support network and saying ‘help, I need you to listen to me rant and wail for a bit’
Trying not to be too hard on myself, basically accepting that the house may be a mess, I may look a mess but I’m good enough, and that in itself is good enough for now.
Are there local groups you can go to? some are supported by health visitors and are really good. Also, at the community centre near me, they have specific volunteers that give up their time to help families, even with simple things like looking after the children while you have a bath/rest etc etc, might be worth investigating. Safe Families is a really good charity that does the same.
Hope you’re okay, it sounds like you’ve got your hands full, but it will get easier
x