Hello. I was married for over 10 years from the age of 18 and have 3 children, I cheated on him about 5 times whilst I was with him ( don’t ask me why, although he was boring and every time I mentioned it to him he was boring he said well its because im older than you ). we then split up in January and we now live apart. I have been seeing somebody else since who is also older than me however as my reputation seems to follow me I have now started cheating on him, he doesn’t do anything with me, im probably sounding very demanding but we don’t go out for meals its usually McDonalds, and if I mention going out for the day somewhere or even in the car for a drive he always says no. I then met this other bloke ( who thinks im single ) and he likes going out for the day, likes the idea of taking my kids out and seems to care for me. He is very much a family man. I do however care about my current boyfriend and don’t like to think of not being with him as he is funny and has taught me a lot about my self confidence. They both don’t take no for an answer if I try and end it they both say its fine I will stick with you and im here for you. I do suffer with depression and anxiety but im thinking I might be very ill. Please can somebody advise me on what to do. im stuck and just hate myself……please help
I am.not one to give great advice but why are you going from man to another ? Personally I think you have low self esteem or craving some sort of attention or you think the grass is greener on the other side because you are not content with what you have.
I am not going to tell you to focus on your kids but you need to focus on yourself and more importantly love yourself !
There are lots of things to do like meditation etc.. when I had issues with the last man which was 5 years ago I took time out for myself and I brought up my daughter single handed after being on my own at 6 months pregnant! And I still was able to hold down a job .