Hi all,
This isn’t something I’ve done before, but I need someone to speak to.
After 11 years together, 4 years married, my husband decided to move out just before the November lockdown kicked in.
I don’t even know what else to say really, my head is such a mess. He says he’s going to come back, that he just needs time to get his head sorted out. I’ve tried so so hard to be supportive as there are other things going on but this really isn’t what I want. I’m really struggling. Because I feel like he’s just stringing me along, he keeps promising me he’ll come home, but honestly how long do I wait? And am I waiting for nothing when I really could be moving on and healing. Today I gave him a date, and said if he’s not back by then, the marriage would be over.
We have a nearly 3 year old daughter, she’s beautiful and amazing. But I’m finding it hard to even focus on her right now because I’m too busy trying to fight the darkness in my mind. She is the most important person in my life and she is what matters more than anything. But how can I show her how to be strong and independent when I’m a total mess?
I just don’t know what to do anymore. Every day i face a constant battle to just make it through, but it’s getting harder.
I have nobody I can speak to. And I don’t even know if doing this will help me but I must try for my daughters sake.
Thank you for reading.
Lou