I’ve not posted in a while, things started looking up, I won my case in court against medical negligence & walked away with enough to buy a house, I gave my childs mum a cut to help sort herself out basically.. before doing this i asked her if she wanted to move away, ill go whereever she says, but she said no stay here.. obviously we have split way before this.. since then i obviously got a house finally new job had my child 50/50, however she kept mentioning moving away with him.. like 200mile away obviously i wasnt happy atall i mean ive been there his whole life & intend to be still, im not meaning to sound selfish & i try to see where shes coming from saying he dont see his family down there much she isnt happy.. but surely taking him away from his dad isnt the right choice either.. i’d honestly buy her a car & pay for her travel whenever she goes down if it meant him staying here, ive never been against her going down.. id help whenever however i can but now ive forced her up here blackmailed her to stay & im not potraiting myself as perfect godforbid nobody is but i just want my son.. but now shes gone to mediation or something & im genuinely empty inside I never wanted to fight over him or subject him to the legal world especially when he his ours.. i just dont know what to do anymore what to say where to go who to trust… im genuinely numb it seems to just be words as it stands but with that alone i cant see a tomorrow for myself really dont feel strong enough to do this or deal with it if it progresses.. i’m well aware theirs legal crap i can do .. dont really want to think about it to be honest I guess i just want someome to talk too.. feel so numb .. just words & im resorted to tears for even folding his clothes.. sounds pathetic just dont know what else to say
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