Before I became a mom I try my best to always be there for friends and family, now I am single mom with a 3 year old and no one is ever there for me. I had to cancel my last year in college because I have no one to call on. No one calls to check if am ok, I try not to get sick because I would have no one to care for me in anyway not even to take me to the doctor. I live at home with my mom and sisters but my household is very toxic if my mom makes dinner she doesn’t even share with the baby but I’m not surprise she never raise her children she just left us on my father and neglect us so basically we were raise partially by our dad who became ill. I am saving to buy a house because I don’t want to stay here much longer it’s sucking the life from me, I am always depress when am home until I leave the house. We live like complete strangers. Trying to purchase the house alone puts a strain on me financially sometimes I can’t afford gas to go work and I have to call in sick. I have been feeling very depress and hopeless that my life won’t get any better I have no one to talk to and go out with to get some fresh air. My toddler father is a covert narcissist and dealing with such people is like signing a contract with the devil so I went no contact. how can I get my life back together and be happy, should I cancel the house because it’s putting me in a bad position financial making it difficult to provide for my child but I don’t want to stay among my family any longer it’s killing me slowly and should I go in search for a partner to be support me. How to start putting the pieces of my life together. Thanks for reading.
Your words tell a sad story but you’re far from alone.
I understand why you’re thinking of finding a partner to support you but you could be leaving yourself open when your vulnerable, perhaps it might be better to look for ways to grow your social life. Have you checked to see if there’s a local gingerbread group near you? If you havnt here’s a link: