Hey, welcome to the forum 🙂
I’ve been here on and off now for quite a few years and I’m happy to say that the folk here are nice and that you won’t be judged so don’t worry.
It’s very early days in your breakup so things might very work themselves out, you’ve not said that your bloke is a horrible person or has done something horrible so don’t panic.
Either way you will get through this difficult time and all will be well.
Keep posting as the more you post the sooner you will find people here that understand.
Mark