hi. I’ve been separated for two years and share custody of my two youngest with my estranged husband (I still can’t call him an ex 😕). I’m not working as I lost my job due to problems attending due to mental health. So I don’t get much social interaction
the split was complicated, but even two years on, I struggle to come to terms with it
my main problem at the moment is the isolation when the children are not here I don’t feel I have any purpose or use when they’re not here I hate the fact they spend their lives living in and out of a suitcase
Because I’m not working, i ‘help’ if he needs the children collecting from school on one of ‘his’ days I grasp any opportunity to spend extra time with them, so end up leaving myself in limbo/on standby
I’m not really making much sense I’m lonely I want to meet new people but I’m also scared of it I’m 45 This is the second time I’ve been in this situation
You are not alone … I live in a village called Maresfield… come visit!
Seriously I have experienced the same as you and when your precious little ones are with their dad, then yes you certainly do have a purpose … it took my year to grasp that and I totally get where your coming from.
Your an amazing mum and Its so hard.
Where do you live?
Maybe we could get together and exchange stories and find a little peace.