Hi shesnotok,
First of all – welcome! 🙂
I think you are to hard on yourself, 4 kids!! You are doing a great job! The house can wait trust me on this🤦♀️. Sleep as much as you need and you know what, being single has its own benefits:
1) TV for yourself – including tv package (i.e. ice cream, popcorn, a cheeky drink)
2) Bed – you can sleep in star shape if you please
3) No socks to pick up from all over the house – at least my ex was like that
4) when time is right you will find new hopes and who knows maybe you’ll find your prince charming!
Jokes aside, it will get easier and at some point it will feel like second nature to do everything by yourself.
For me it worked to talk to my boys and say guys, I can’t cope with everything so I need help! They have their chores and reward charts and all to make everyone’s life fall under a routine and -kind of- take control of the chaos. But with time and allowing yourself room to breathe and self care too.
Remember, you are doing your best.
🙂
G.