Hi ambelle, it’s hard I Havant been doing it as long as others, and I have diftent things going on, than you. But like you my self esteem is at an all time low, I feel guilty for the brake down of my marriage even though my ex is the one to have an affair because of the effect that it’s having on my eldest. At the moment I get one night off a fortnight. And the adult that I speak to most is my ex.
i know however that I’m a good dad and while I might not be perfect I am trying so hard for my kids. And isn’t that what it’s all about? Yes it can be stressful keeping on top of everything and it can be a thankless job, but know in your heart that you are doing everything you can to give your daughter the best that you can provide. Know that you are strong enough to do it alone and that couples struggle just as much. When it feels hard hug your son. When he dose something new or amazing know that he achieved that becouse of you.
I find it helps me when things get tough to know that my kids need me and I focus on there needs not me.
i hope this helps a little and that others can help you more.
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