I just feel so alone lately. It’s like no one likes being around me. My older children live with their dad and when I ask to visit one isn’t talking to me and the other is never keen to visit. I try to cook fresh food, make visits fun, give lots of options on activities we could do. I just don’t understand why things have changed so much between us which makes the loneliness worse. I have no friends, find it hard to trust anyone. Been hurt so much and I can’t escape the fear that anyone knew will reject me too. I just feel like everyone hates me and is laughing at me. I don’t know why I just feel like everyone thinks I’m an idiot. It makes me feel like not going out as I come back feeling worse from the way someone’s looked at me, spoke to me or something. It’s like I’m hated everywhere I go. I don’t feel welcome anywhere. I feel sorry too for my son, and that he’d be better off with a mum who had friends/single mum friends with kids who he could friends with. I feel a failure for not providing him with a happy childhood with friends his age about. I hate feeling rejected and unable to be apart of anything. I just want to fit in, have a few friends and play dates a week. It feels impossible.
Just sending hugs 🙂 sorry to hear its tough adjusting to a different nest, it can be too easy to fall into depression, especially in these times! with so much stigmas, myths & harmful judgement some folk have… it can be too easy to internalise this or blame ourselves.
maybe a bit of counselling could help? might be worth trying a new class or course to feel more sociable with less pressure?
sorry to hear about feeling more distant with your kids, it could be so many factors from naturally needing more independence at their age, needing space to deal with the new situation or simply just being buttheads because kids often are towards their parents! It’s not your personal failing & you are not failing them if you still obviously deeply care & keep trying.
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