Bless yah.
I can relate to the moving your whole life. When me an my kids dad were trying for a family I returned to church in the hope that it would strengthen our words to each other and help mute out negative behaviours.
It didn’t. I ended up in a womens refuge and our 3 children were placed away from the family home.
Its so hard. Especially this time of year.
Keep strong. Count your blessings and have a lovely Christmas.
A new relationship will come when the times right.