Depressed alone and scared

[qtb0498]

I’m 22, my boyfriend wants nothing to do with me now that I’m pregnant even though this is the second time (miscarriage in aug). He’s very emotionally abusive and borderline physical if he’s upset or drunk which is every weekend. We live together currently and I lost all my friends when I chose to stay with him so he knows how trapped I feel. He’s in the army so he feels I am slowing him down. He’s constantly cheated on me and made me feel like I’m shit to feel better about leaving. I just want to be healthy for my baby but it’s hard because I’m so stuck in this ,

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[Gummibear123]

Unclear post:

He wants nothing to do with you, yet you currently live together and you feel trapped. And he is in the army. And home every weekend…? Youare ‘slowing him down’ but it seems he is leaving or left….? Sorry, very difficult to comprehend.

[qtb0498]

sorry i was frustrated and just getting my feelings out. We’ve been living together for close to a year although his base in non deployable so he he’s here most of the time besides the weekends when he does whatever he feels. He likes to break up with me and threaten to leave anytime so I get used to him packing his bags to go wherever for a couple days and coming back when it’s convienient. He says he’s not happy and it’s my fault but after I beg him he gets over and continues to put up with me I guess. i just feel this situation is becoming extremely unhealthy and I know he’s just waiting to save up enough to actually leave me (he’s a bug spender on liquor so his threats to move out never fall through).

[Gummibear123]

I’m sorry you find yourself in such an unstable and frightening situation.I doubt you deserve to live like this ,and it obv would not be a safe place for a baby to live.I’m sure you’ve thought of that.So your post makes me wonder if you are going to take action to change this situation you are in, or keep begging him to come back and continue the toxicity that you are currently living with-while you know how unhappy you are….?

[qtb0498]

I know it sounds dumb, but i have a lot of abandonment issues stemming from my childhood and my own father never being present, apart of me doesn’t want to let go because i hate the fact someone can just leave me like i mean nothing to them. if that makes sense, but I know you’re right i do have to think about the best situation for my child

[Gummibear123]

Totally makes sense then.

You are not dumb at all.

Nobody wants to be left over and over.And you probably don’t want to do that to your child.

I have seen the pain it caused my own children,it’s very sad & I feel your pain.

 

 

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