Hiya I’m new to here but feel like I need some support. I am a single mum to my 4 year old daughter who has no contact with her dad following abuse she was only a baby I hit rock bottom, panic attacks, nightmares, medication to help me. I turned the corner and became stronger off medication and with the help of counselling was able to recognise symptoms and manage them before they got so bad. I met my current partner who is the absolute opposite of my ex, incredible, supportive, loving and everything I thought never existed, I also enrolled and in my 2nd of study which finishes the end of the year to then we are moving in with him. Then there was this pandemic.. it’s hit me like a steam train, I can’t stop crying, emotional over everything, anxiety is back with a vengeance, panicking, sweats, palpitations it’s crippling me whilst trying to entertain my daughter, continue my studies and work from home. I’m in need of support and feel at breaking point also scared that I’m heading back to where I was 3.5 years ago. I’m trying my absolute upmost I’m talking to friends, family and my partner regularly however hiding my actual true emotions and feeling in fear that they will be concerned of how I may be going backwards. I’m scared, my partner lives on his own no contact with anyone, I have been doing the same I’ve been to the shops just 3 times since lockdown because I’m scared of catching the virus and my daughter and I go for a walk early mornings around 7am to avoid any contact with anyone. For my own mental well-being I feel I need to move from my house to my partners for additional support emotionally, mentally and physically to help relieve pressure so I am able to continue with my studies, work from home and support with my daughter. I just don’t know how much longer I can keep going on like this without hitting the bottom and with no physical support from my incredible partner, family and friends around to pick me up like previously. I’ve come a long long way I don’t want to go backwards and I need to be the best I can be mentally for my daughter.
sorry you are feeling like this, I’m an emotional wreck myself!
if your partner is staying at home and also you are and your child is used to being around you both I would say for your own mental health that going to your partners and vice a versus would be fine!
The guidelines now state that if a you have an argurment with your family you can go to a friends house, so I think the above will be fine my lovely!! For your safety and your childs.