20 years and he’s walked out – crushed

My ex sent me a message saying he loves me the day before he walked out and we had 2 holidays booked to take our children on so I get exactly where u r coming from it’s so hard to try and understand why they do it and soon u will probably be blamed for it but if I am honest I did the same as u are kept reading over it looking at photos etc and then about 2 weeks later I deleted them all and removed all photos from my house and then I actually felt good for it because they are really not worth are tears which obviously u will still cry for a long time yet I even cried when i started the divorce but by the time the absolute came through I was relieved that he actually done me a favour and showed me I am worth more than that and so are you.

No of course i dont he was having an affair with someone he worked with wasn’t the first either first time my youngest was only a baby.  I divorced him in December on adultery and he still with her now she younger than him and me nothing like me and no children.