I know how you feel, I am in a difficult situation and have no family or friends nearby for support. I have been feeling very lost some days, but you’re better off without someone who is as unstable as your ex.
I’ve found a lot of practical advice online, maybe contact a local womens group and see if they have any information that might help you out?
When lockdown lifts I’m going to making more of an effort to go to parenting groups. I figure making friends is a good place to start in regards to making my life more full.
Stay safe x