I’ve had abusive relationships with men too as well as ones where I was cheated on etc It’s exhausting to invest into a relationship and be let down and open up to someone new and be let down again over and over.
I don’t hate men, but I’m not sure how easy I’d find it to trust a new man romantically again. I’m not sure women are any better either. I guess we won’t know until we try!
I think it’s okay to be confused about your sexuality. For some it is simple, for some it’s complex. Complexity can be frustrating but also beautiful and exciting.