Please try not to compare yourself to others, or If you do, try and think something to balance out the feelings. Some people are very good at putting on a pretense to the outside world whereas the reality can be very different. Feeling sad and lonely can be the worst especially at this time of year. This is all so recent for you too so it all must be pretty raw. Have you been able to talk to anyone about how you are feeling? I’ll be getting divorced sometime next year after being separated 18 months. Hopefully you can get some support from this group.